JUNE

There's a liar in June,
Confessing finally,
I can't take it back, I'm guilty.
I cannot help who I am
despite the look in your eyes
but I cannot comprimise.
Page after page
the ink is running
There's a liar and its me.
It wasn't my intention to hurt
If I could take it back I would.
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Liar, liar do tell how you can even face yourself.
Liar, liar it's me and I feel so guilty.
Liar, liar do tell how you can even face yourself.
Liar, liar it's you
You can't deny you lie too.
Why would you want to know?
The truth should stay with me.
My image is shatering.
I'm making excuses
excuses are lies.
I cannot stop my own demise.
It wasn't my intention to hurt.
If I could take it back I would
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In this month of June,
starving for sympathy
there's a liar and it's me.

Looking Back

I tought it would have been idea but I'm sick of being your secret.
I could always tell a story well,
Just wait until the one of you I'll tell.
I refuse to rely on anyone else
I wish I could just not care.
But then I'd be too much like you.
I'll never figure you out or start new.
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We are falling into something we thought was forever but it's not.
So I look back, so I look back and its nothing that I thought.

All the times you made me smile, it's such a task for anyone.
Are you the reason that I am here?
You're in the distance and won't let me near.
I still wonder what you're all about
but you say I know you so well.
I need you now more if ever,
but you're too busy and much too clever.
Please let me in
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I cannot feel you through my skin..
I have become much too numb,
Please let me in..
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Falling Apart

I'm feeling cold and disconnected from reality.
There is just no escape from this grey city.
I've slipped back into someone that I used to be.
And now all of these problems are weights on top of me.
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Its building and building up inside
Im falling apart
Its only a matter of time
Its falling apart
Its building and building up inside
Im falling apart
The pawn of an ambivalent tide
Its falling apart
How can I pull myself up without slipping?
I can't hold onto the surface, it keeps ripping.
Hanging on by the last threads, a tethered like.
If I don't pull up right now I am going to sink.
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Walking on a rotting fence
I wonder if before death the body becomes tense.

Butterflies

How foolish I was to have fallen in love with you,
infatuated with everything you do.
I'm full of secrets that I'm not supposed to know.
Butterfly caught in a net,
it's sad to see you look so low.
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Tear the wings from the butterflies just to watch them fall.
Once so high and beautiful but now forced to crawl.
Tear the wings from the butterflies,
Pull them from the sky.
Cut away the beautiful to see whats left inside.
What a clever disguise as you walk upon your pedestal.
Too big for your size,
disappointing to see beauty fall.
Too good to be true,
your perfection starts to fade.
Standing with you in the rain
and your beauty washes away.
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All that's left inside, decayed lies
All that's left behind, insect.

Terrible Escape

I want to sink into myself again
and feel it numb this pain.
There are so many days I don't want to remember but they still remain.
I hate myself for giving into this but it feels good to fade away.
I'm just one more victim living to dull one more day.
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It's a terrible escape, a wonderful mistake
life itself is more than I can take.
it's a terrible escape, a wonderful mistake.
I've escaped all that is real and for once I just don't care
all the hate and hurt around me seems to not be there.
All I feel is the air around me as I melt into this vice.
A solution to things I cannot hide,
escape can feel so nice
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Bitter Season

Dawn peeks in.
Whitewashed children absorb ideas of things to be.
Beginning one more cycle
an empty palate possibility.
All too late, it starts to fade.
The canvas shows impressions of lies.
Waste of hues on a death bed,
Painting frost on cold, closed eyes.
Look as far as you can see,
vision is blurred past your life.
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This bitter season forever frozen
in winter where nothing can grow.
Remember your life before imagination held boundaries.
Simple things capturing me,
There were so many new things to see.
Just drifting into nowhere
I'm lost but there is nothing to save.
Some abstract pile of garbage,
a mosaic of shattered ideals
a waste of broken glass and you have to cut deep to feel.
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We are going in circles

Hide and Seek

Hide and seek
I can't find what you really think.
Led one way to distract what you want to say.
It's all a game to see if I feel the same.
I don't want to play
Just tell me one truth today.
Can I count on you to let me down?
Hold my head unders and let me drown
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Surrender the guessing game
because what you say and what you mean are not the same
Surrender teh guessing game
because what you say and what you feel are not the same.
Take a peek
I'll show you what I really think.
some fickle game and no I do not feel the same.
Move along.
I can show you just where you went wrong.
Honeslty we were never meant to be.
I've become accustomed to this game we play.
It's easier to not believe one word you say.
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The House

This house is rotting
and you're not leaving
I'm not seeing
the house is not a part of me.
The paint is peeling
The glass has cracked
it's stale inside these arms
but it's shelter to me
There's comfort here
inside crumbling walls
just waiting for the day
you bury me.
This house is rotting
and you're not leaving
I'm not seeing
the house is not a part of me.
Floorboards bowing
with each footstep
you don't hold me back
intent on sinking
Mildew hiding
in every crevice.
A tapestry shrouding me
in your misery
This house is rotting
and you're not leaving
I'm not seeing
the house is not a part of me.

Trigger Coated

I sank below regret
It's satisfaction that I crave
Taste this poison called lust
on lips so cold and grave
I want to taste your thoughts
like a pistol on my tongue
just pull the trigger if you can
end this while it's young.
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Trigger Coated, sugar coated
Trigger coated, so sweet to taste
Trigger coated, sugar coated
Loving you was such a waste
On Tangled twisted branches
lies a web we used to weave
this blanket night still frozen
your absense I cannot grieve
I loved the way you smelled
a brackish mix of deceit
you aren't worth remembering
a lesson learned, a worthless feat
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I waslked with you through many storms
you made me question who I am
manipulating all that I think and
you tear down everyone that you can
I held your hand through all the tides
and you think that I owe you.
Do you really think that I'm that blind?
you say you're free now, well I'm free too
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In The Garden

Warm my blood.  Warm my bed. 
You're the victim now, the one who's been misled.
Run your fingers down my face.
This will remain to remind
but you still won't find a trace.
Betrayal is the salt of love
so here's a pinch of salt, just a little shove.
You wish I might an dI just may.
It feels so perfect the discomfort never goes away.
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In the garden, the the garden
I have led you to the garden where death blooms
Deceiver, such a fool
If only you knew me like I know you.
It's been with me all along.
Wrapped around my finger, eating from my palm.
You wish I might and I just may.
It feels so perfect
the discomfort never goes away.
Warm my blood.
Warm my bed.
You're the victim now
the one who's been misled.

Dead All Along

It's over.  They say you can't go home.
How can you grieve for something thats been dead all along?
It's in your hands to tie everything.
We don't know what it is but it's unraveling.
I loved being your victim.
It reassures me that you care.
Misery, apathy, can't you see all the hurt that you are causing me?
But it feels like completion to me.
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You're drifting away.
Though I wanted you to stay,
I'm pushing you away.
It just has to be this way.
This one sided friendship has to end.
How can you take so much and call yourself a friend?
The beginning is always goodbye.
Knowing you for so long
a stranger the whole time.
I loved being your victim
It reassures me that you care
Misery, apathy, can't you see all the hurt that you are causing me?
But it feels like completion to me.
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The invisible string, binding nothing, we are nothing but it feels like completion to me.
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